November 11, 2008
I got my house! Although I have been waiting for three years to get my own place, it feels like it happened so fast. I am so excited to take my son for a tour of his new room, and a ride around his new neighborhood. He has not even seen it, but I am hoping that it will be a pleasant surprise for him.
Even with all the excitement, I feel stressed about paying bills. The only bills I ever had to pay were my credit card bills and my car insurance bills. I hope that this does not kick me in the behind.
Okay, Okay, I will stop blabbering about my house. Instead I will blabber about my son. For a couple of months he has become the biggest Slipknot fan. He is not a teenager--he is three years old. All he talks about is Chris the drummer. All he wants for Christmas is a Slipknot mask. Most likely his dad will get it for him, but honestly, I think it will scare me at night.
Isn't it funny how children develop these personalities? It is interesting to me that everyone is so different, like they were meant to be that way. Whenever I am at the bookstore, I glance at the parenting books and wonder how child psychologists make it sound like they have the answers to raising a perfect, well-behaved child. I followed all the techniques to Super Nanny and followed everything that I read in Parents Magazine, but in reality, children have their own thoughts and ideas.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
My Dream House
Being 23-years-old, I feel that it is time to leave the nest. Since I was 14, I wanted to leave home; I even contemplated running away. However, because of my financial situation, I have been living in my parent's house. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that my parents let me stay in their house, but it's nothing like having your own place (even if I am renting). At night I dream about cooking in my own kitchen and cleaning my own place. It may seem funny, but that is what I look forward to-not partying or staying up late every night. I am a mother, and as a mother, I have a responsibility to provide for him.
Today I found a beautiful place in the neighborhood beside the animal hospital. The outside is beautiful, and house is in a cul-de-sac, which I love. The inside was still smells of paint. There are hard wood floors, which will make it easy to clean. I never thought of a bathroom as my sanctuary, but in this case I do, because they are gorgeous. Everything about the house is like my dream house, and I hope that I get it. It will make my life feel like it is just beginning.
Today I found a beautiful place in the neighborhood beside the animal hospital. The outside is beautiful, and house is in a cul-de-sac, which I love. The inside was still smells of paint. There are hard wood floors, which will make it easy to clean. I never thought of a bathroom as my sanctuary, but in this case I do, because they are gorgeous. Everything about the house is like my dream house, and I hope that I get it. It will make my life feel like it is just beginning.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
prop 8
As I was driving around town yesterday, I noticed many people holding up signs to vote "yes" for proposition 8. On those signs said "honk if you vote 'yes' on prop 8." Not surprisingly, many passionate people honked after passing the crowd. What did surprise me, however, was that there were children holding up these signs. It was perposterous! I am definitely for instilling values on children, but not political views, and especially not in a public affair.
So what are my views? I would vote "no" on proposition 8 because I do not believe in descrimination. Furthermore, I do not feel that gay marriage will hurt anybody. Many people who oppose do not feel that they are descriminating because gay marriage is "unnatural." Although not the norm, they are still people and deserve the respect and right to marry.
There are so many theories on homosexuality, such as it being an abnormal condition, or choosing to live a "sinful" lifestyle. Though theories, there are no real answers. In that case, I do not believe that I or anybody else has the right to say if homosexuality is wrong.
Another opposing view is that our children will be taught about gay marriage in schools. I have never heard of an instructor teaching about marriage in school. However, I did learn about sex education, slang terms for beer, marijuana, and other drugs, and how to use a condom. Yet it is acceptable.
I feel that proposition 8 will pass, and I do not think anything will change. However, I do feel that society needs to be more accepting. It will be a good lesson for our children if we teach them to treat others as we would like to be treated.
So what are my views? I would vote "no" on proposition 8 because I do not believe in descrimination. Furthermore, I do not feel that gay marriage will hurt anybody. Many people who oppose do not feel that they are descriminating because gay marriage is "unnatural." Although not the norm, they are still people and deserve the respect and right to marry.
There are so many theories on homosexuality, such as it being an abnormal condition, or choosing to live a "sinful" lifestyle. Though theories, there are no real answers. In that case, I do not believe that I or anybody else has the right to say if homosexuality is wrong.
Another opposing view is that our children will be taught about gay marriage in schools. I have never heard of an instructor teaching about marriage in school. However, I did learn about sex education, slang terms for beer, marijuana, and other drugs, and how to use a condom. Yet it is acceptable.
I feel that proposition 8 will pass, and I do not think anything will change. However, I do feel that society needs to be more accepting. It will be a good lesson for our children if we teach them to treat others as we would like to be treated.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Mary's Thoughts
Sometimes when I contemplate on my life, I want to break down in tears. Not that I pity myself, but I am so frustratied about not having enough money to feel secure. Right now my car has many problems. Four months ago I paid 2000 dollars in maintenance work, and I would not be surprised if I have to pay that much money again.
I am generally a happy person but life makes it a little difficult sometimes. My job is very tiring and stressful. Perhaps every job field is that way, but sometimes I feel that food service is at the top in a list of stressful jobs.
On a lighter note, I am relieved that my EAC essay for Engish class is complete. It was so difficult because I felt that my research hindered me. Furthermore, I thought, "What topics will I pick? Will my reader be interested?" Nevertheless, I feel like so much weight is off of me now that it is complete.
Sometimes when I contemplate on my life, I want to break down in tears. Not that I pity myself, but I am so frustratied about not having enough money to feel secure. Right now my car has many problems. Four months ago I paid 2000 dollars in maintenance work, and I would not be surprised if I have to pay that much money again.
I am generally a happy person but life makes it a little difficult sometimes. My job is very tiring and stressful. Perhaps every job field is that way, but sometimes I feel that food service is at the top in a list of stressful jobs.
On a lighter note, I am relieved that my EAC essay for Engish class is complete. It was so difficult because I felt that my research hindered me. Furthermore, I thought, "What topics will I pick? Will my reader be interested?" Nevertheless, I feel like so much weight is off of me now that it is complete.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
More Thoughts
In my previous post, I commented on the meaning of Christmas. However, I realized that not everyone celebrates Christmas. I have been reading a book entitled "The Dark Side of Christian History," and it talks about December 25, and why some people choose not to celebrate that day as Christmas. I will not go into the story but I must say that I understand where they are coming from.
I am working on my "explaining a concept" essay, and I realized that there is so much out there that I never knew about different religions. Many people resist learning about different religions, but I think it is necessary. I think that people should talk about their faith and be open to other people's viewpoints. If religious communities encourage peace, then isn't it ironic that conflicts form because of opposing views?
A few years ago, I attended a Hindu temple and it was a great experience. The alter was beautiful and the chants were very soothing. I told a lady there that I was Catholic and she was very welcoming. I am continuing to learn about other beliefs.
Furthermore, I believe Joyce Meyer when she said:" We were not put on this Earth to find religion. We were put here to find God."
I am working on my "explaining a concept" essay, and I realized that there is so much out there that I never knew about different religions. Many people resist learning about different religions, but I think it is necessary. I think that people should talk about their faith and be open to other people's viewpoints. If religious communities encourage peace, then isn't it ironic that conflicts form because of opposing views?
A few years ago, I attended a Hindu temple and it was a great experience. The alter was beautiful and the chants were very soothing. I told a lady there that I was Catholic and she was very welcoming. I am continuing to learn about other beliefs.
Furthermore, I believe Joyce Meyer when she said:" We were not put on this Earth to find religion. We were put here to find God."
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Christmas Time
I don't know about everyone else, but I love to decorate for the holidays, especially Christmas. It sounds silly but I am already planning for Christmas. My sister, on the other hand, does not like to put up decorations at her work; it is a tedious chore. Now my sister is no Scrooge; she is as excited for the holidays as much as I am. So why the attitude?
I am sure that most people are aware that you cannot even say "Merry Christmas" at work. The appropriate thing to say is "Happy Holidays." Which brings me back to my sister's attitude toward Christmas-decorating at her work. I do not blame her. I would have an attitude as well if I was not allowed to set up a nativity scene, angels, and everything else that makes Christmas beautiful and gives it meaning. Whether I'm at the mall or at the supermarket, it seems that everywhere I look, "Christ" is taken out of Christmas.
It is funny that when I attend church, I see people praising the Lord out loud. They are not shy or scared of sharing their faith. However, all of that changes when we step out of church and enter the politically correct world.
It would be so wonderful if I could teach the true meaning of Christmas to my son. Of course I could read to him about the real meaning, but it is difficult for a 3-year-old to concentrate on a story when he keeps asking if he could have a Power Wheel.
Nevertheless, Christmas is not the time for attitudes, but it is the time to praise the Lord.
I am sure that most people are aware that you cannot even say "Merry Christmas" at work. The appropriate thing to say is "Happy Holidays." Which brings me back to my sister's attitude toward Christmas-decorating at her work. I do not blame her. I would have an attitude as well if I was not allowed to set up a nativity scene, angels, and everything else that makes Christmas beautiful and gives it meaning. Whether I'm at the mall or at the supermarket, it seems that everywhere I look, "Christ" is taken out of Christmas.
It is funny that when I attend church, I see people praising the Lord out loud. They are not shy or scared of sharing their faith. However, all of that changes when we step out of church and enter the politically correct world.
It would be so wonderful if I could teach the true meaning of Christmas to my son. Of course I could read to him about the real meaning, but it is difficult for a 3-year-old to concentrate on a story when he keeps asking if he could have a Power Wheel.
Nevertheless, Christmas is not the time for attitudes, but it is the time to praise the Lord.
Monday, September 29, 2008
More Thoughts
September 29, 2008
A few days ago, I commented on how difficult it is for me to choose a major; however, I had one in mind the whole time. I want to major in music because I enjoy playing and I love to teach it. Since January of this year, I have been teaching young students how to play the piano. I started out with five students, which is a very good start. However, because of the economy, I lost three students. Many people do not want to continute taking lessons because it is just a hobby or extracurricular activity, and besides, gas prices are so high. Wherever I go, I hear of private music teachers that lost a lot of students. Above all of the conflict, I still want to go further and get a degree in music. Is it crazy?
To me, playing music is like writing in a journal. It's therapy. Furthermore, it puts me in a good mood whenever I play or even listen.
There is a song in the radio that I always have stuck in my head.
"Whatever you're doing inside of me,
it feels like chaos but somehow it seems
you're up to something bigger than me
larger than life, something heavenly."
I live each day contemplating those lyrics because although life get tough, God has a plan.
September 30, 2008
I must admit, being a mom is the hardest thing that I ever had to do. My son is only 3 years old, and he is constantly telling me that he hates me. At first I think nothing of it, but then I think that maybe 10 or 15 years from now, he might mean it. He hates me when I don't give him candy, toys, when I don't let him stay up late. I try to explain that I do it for his own good, but how do you explain something like that to a toddler. How will they understand?
I know that I cannot mold or program my son into what I want him to be because the truth is, I want him to choose the kind of person that he wants to be, and I'll love him no matter what. Hopefully, I'll never forget to tell him that. I just hope that I have been a positive influence on him.
A few days ago, I commented on how difficult it is for me to choose a major; however, I had one in mind the whole time. I want to major in music because I enjoy playing and I love to teach it. Since January of this year, I have been teaching young students how to play the piano. I started out with five students, which is a very good start. However, because of the economy, I lost three students. Many people do not want to continute taking lessons because it is just a hobby or extracurricular activity, and besides, gas prices are so high. Wherever I go, I hear of private music teachers that lost a lot of students. Above all of the conflict, I still want to go further and get a degree in music. Is it crazy?
To me, playing music is like writing in a journal. It's therapy. Furthermore, it puts me in a good mood whenever I play or even listen.
There is a song in the radio that I always have stuck in my head.
"Whatever you're doing inside of me,
it feels like chaos but somehow it seems
you're up to something bigger than me
larger than life, something heavenly."
I live each day contemplating those lyrics because although life get tough, God has a plan.
September 30, 2008
I must admit, being a mom is the hardest thing that I ever had to do. My son is only 3 years old, and he is constantly telling me that he hates me. At first I think nothing of it, but then I think that maybe 10 or 15 years from now, he might mean it. He hates me when I don't give him candy, toys, when I don't let him stay up late. I try to explain that I do it for his own good, but how do you explain something like that to a toddler. How will they understand?
I know that I cannot mold or program my son into what I want him to be because the truth is, I want him to choose the kind of person that he wants to be, and I'll love him no matter what. Hopefully, I'll never forget to tell him that. I just hope that I have been a positive influence on him.
October 3, 2008
I have noticed a lot of changes since my son has turned three. The main thing that I notice is that he needs to be around his peers. He is so hyperactive and he does not know what to do with himself when he and I are home. Each day I have to let him grow up a little bit more, and it is so hard for me to do; however, it is best for him.
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